War of MSN Captions...
I guess I'm still affected in someway, somehow.
Even after that tele-conversation wif buddy last nite, I thought I was fine. But then, upon seeing M's msn caption today, I felt that feeling creeping upon me again. Why cant I just be ignorant and oblivious to what ppl say and judge?
I should be the one pointing fingers at him first. But he's just too "good" can. To jump the gun first, and point fingers at me and made people hear his one-sided story. And the disappointing part is these people dont bother to come clarify and hear my side of the story. And when I start to ask you abt it, you keep shoving me away and tell me nothing's wrong. I realise how friendships and colleague-ships can be so fragile and fake.
I guess I was being too nice. My mentality was colleagues are still colleagues. If I can accept it, and try to accept it graciously, why cant him then. I didnt want to spoil the relationship between us, yes, no doubt I was disgusted and disappointed in him. I am affected that our relationship is destroyed. I am disappointed. To think that I even made him promise me not to confront him at all. =(
Wrong move.The world is too complex. Complicated. And I think I'm too much a simple and naive person. To the extent that I feel so used at times, to get affected at the slightest thingy, and that I simply trust people too easily. Just treat me a lil' bit nicer, and I seemed so swept away. Why cant human beings be more simple?
Yes, I agree that I am just not to up it to play politics. Or to play mind games.
Maybe, put it positively, I learnt another lesson in life. Don't be too trusting. And I have seen another ugly side of
men.
Think simple. Live simply.
WSY is a simple girl
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