In Pursuit of Happiness...
Was listening to Ah Mei's 我要快乐 song while driving home from work today. Day by day, we always hear people saying they just want to be happy in life. Undeniably, I too, want to be happy. But, wat exactly makes up happiness? Or rather, wat exactly makes up
MY happiness?
Different people have different aims and goals in life. Different way of living and expecting too. Some people are contented wif just a normal job, a roof over their heads, living each day as it is. Some people ask for more, wif luxurious cars, a big house, and in random, the 5Cs that Singaporeans used to talk abt so much. How abt me then?
Someone(s) told me today and yesterday that he(they) just wanted me to be happy. He told me till the day that I will be happy, only then will he be happy too. Words like these - make me wonder. Easily said and felt, but how to go abt doing it? Do you really know wat makes me happy? Do you really know wat makes my happiness?
Striking 4D? Receiving gifts? Looking good? Getting a pay raise and promotion? Being wif your loved one? Getting married? Having kids? Can I be greedy and ask for all? Will I be happy if I am paid so filthily well, but yet I have no love? Or how abt the other way round?
I'm not sure wat has got into me today. I seem to feel lost again, esp after that lunch conversation over Coffee Club. It's probably the time of the month, that has got me moody and bluey. Monday blues - another probable reason.
I have learnt to be not so 强求 and 执著 in life. Looking back during the past two years, I'm not sure how I did survive through. I have grown to be a more independent and stronger girl as a result. Looking at this from another perspective, it may not a good sign, aint it?
Sometimes, I feel that happiness are short-lived for. Take for example, the most recent
Lo Hwei Yen. Successful lawyer, career-minded, happily married just last year, wif a loving husband and family.. God just took her away from the horrible and hateful terrorists. Doesnt she deserve another chance to live? Or even the chance to fight for survival? What she left behind is a grieving Singapore, a tear-stricken husband and devastated parents. It juz makes me wonder, how unpredictable life can be. She had probably everything laid out smoothly for her in her remaining life. But then..
Life is just so that unpredictable. You never know what is in store for you. Walk down the streets, turn at every corner, you never know wat each corner has in store for you!
At this rate that I'm going, I always "warn" my mummy,
"Pls be prepared that you wont have a son-in-law..." (hee) Dont laugh, I really tink so lorrr. =( =( =(
Wif that, I conclude. My number one goal in life is: 我要快乐!!!
And my definition of happiness? *Continue to pray for me pls...*
To walk down the red carpet blissfully one day...
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