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Wednesday, February 17, 2010

..... this day would come so soon for me...

Looking at the one-carat rock on my 4th finger, I cant help smiling to myself and yet, been asking myself if all these is real...

YES! You read it right! He Has PROPOSED! Hehee. Lalaaa. Woooohhh.

Its the best Valentine's Day and CNY year for me in my 27 years! Okok, let me go into the details..

We've been viewing houses, discussing abt our finances and talking about my rock recently. And from my blog and thru our conversations, he knew that my dream rock is from the BrilliantRose series. He also knew that I'm damn good in predicting his moves and asking him questions by beating around the bush to get my answers... So he really had hard time keeping the secret to himself, and arranging time to head down Sookee to choose and to buy the rock. Hehhee. Okok, to the details.. :)

We had already booked the hotel stay at Hilton Hotel for this Vday a month back. And knowing his pattern, I already warned him not to propose during this hotel stay - which gave him such a huge headache. And worse off, I even blew away his surprise when I peeked into his iphone and found some stuff that he was preparing.. (Big Oppssss!) He got so disappointed and almost gave up in coming up wif a proposal plan. Coupled with the fact that we've been having some arguments over the house and family issue lately, I guess he really had a hard time struggling on how to propose to the extent that he almost gave up. Making matters worse, he fell sick on the night that we checked in the hotel on friday 12th Feb.

The flowers that he pre-ordered from FarEastFlora went missing, and when he called up the hotline to enquire, he got scolded from the operator instead. Called up another few attempts, they have already closed the hotline. Went down to the concierge to check twice, finally got the flowers, but it was not nice at all! It was so sub-standard, as though FarEastFlora was just doing for the sake of doing to the mass market. To top it all off, I was still lamenting to him that the roses were so ugly (Uh Ohhh!)

He went to sleep wif the ring on his finger, hoping that he would have a chance to slip the ring into my finger in the middle of the night - which wasnt easy cos I always tend to sleep on the side, instead of facing up! Three attempts he got up in the middle of the night, and he failed on all three attempts cos I was sleeping on the wrong side - He gave up. (Hahaa!)

Woke up in the morning, went down for breakfast, everything was normal. Went back to nap after breakfast since we were granted a late checkout at 4pm. Halfway thru the nap, he suddenly turned over. I opened my eyes and almost couldnt believe what was right in front of my eyes.. There it was! - TheRock that I've been waiting for! I went stunned for a few seconds... He waiting a few moments for the revealation to set in, before he finally gulped down a few mouths of oxygen and asked "Baby, will you marry me?"

*swoonnnnssss*..........................................

My answer was of course a Yes la! HEhehehe. I don't need a fanciful proposal, neither do I need him kneeling down to propose... All I wanted was a surprise element - And he really DID surprise me at almost the most untimely and unexpected moment! Most importantly, I know the amount of effort and commitment that he has put in, in getting this ring for me..

Thankiew baby, you've made me the happiest and fortunate girl on 13th Feb 2010. =)

Labels: love, proposal, william

Will My Turn Ever Come?

Tuesday, March 24, 2009

Been hearing alot of my friends getting hitched and having plans of getting married. Shared their joy over viewing of their 幸福爱情 photos. Of cos I do feel happy for them, esp for some of the few..

Congrats babe, glad you and him had another chance together. Sincerely hope that you are able to find your happilyeverafter wif him.. After all, we were once really similar..

And it makes me wonder, when will it ever be my turn? Will my turn ever come?

Labels: love, updates

My Confession...

Sunday, March 8, 2009

After your confession 1 week back, I followed up wif my confession too.

My palms were cold - as what you mentioned. I pretended to care about those tacky advertising posters as we walked by, when I should be looking at you and listening to what you were saying.

It's like what happens when your own self, after being used to 2 years of independence, constant reliance on friends and family members, so so used to doing things almost alone, suddenly finds a moment of rest - a moment of weakness and yet not wanting and willing to admit it. I'm not sad, really, but I am unsettled.

I kept searching for the lost old feeling I used to enjoy and missed. I questioned and searched within myself for answers and tried to make me feel better. And in the midst of all these, I started comparing absent-mindedly. I know I probably should not do all these, and that its just so unfair to you. And of all songs, you just had to sing Andy Lau's 爱你一万年 yesterday - and you sang it so well. It brought tears to my eyes, I didnt know why. And you didnt dare sing Jacky Cheung's 你的名字我的姓氏 cos you know of the history behind this song. And when I sang Elva Xiao's 安静, you clapped for me. Thats because I sang this song wif my feelings and related it to my life.

Later over dinner, I told you I'm not used to it. I'm no longer the kind of girl who would want to meet up every other day and be lovey-dovey over it. I'm no longer the kind of girl who will restrict your freedom and activities. Go ahead, by all means. Likewise, I would expect the same kind of the treatment back. Freedom. Yet, I would very much still wanna settle down one day. Sounds so contradicting, I know.

Its at times like this, that I really wonder if I'll ever love another person like how I used to love him...

Labels: love, updates

Sometimes I wonder...

Wednesday, January 28, 2009

... If my heart is dead. *horror gasps!!*

Been asked "the question" a million times these few days during CNY visiting. Been advised a billion times to lower my criteria. Been instructed a zillion times not to turn up alone next CNY. Okay. I shall try my best - My answer back to them.

Of course I'm stressed. Why not? Especially when my age crawls nearer to the digit 30.

Wif VDay inching nearer, friends have started asking wif WHOM am I going to spend theday wif. Seriously, I do hope to spend the day alone. I dun wish to commit to any of them. They may be of good calibre, and they have really shown much patience. Not that I havent tried, but my heart doesnt seem to be able to open up to them at all. *pouts mouth*

Sometimes, I wish that I can be left alone. Ya, just alone. Take for example today - I meant to just stay at home to rest, alone. To have my "alone time". BUT I've got calls and sms coming in as early as since 6 plus am today! Yes - you know who you are. *grins* Ended up CNY visiting at a colleague's place and I still ended up at the MJ table la. *pouts mouth again* Ended up, I blew away a surprise, a dinner appointment, a movie request and another night MJ session. Ya, I disappointed 4 people today. And I'm running the risk of chasing away the potential beaus.

Conclusion. I'm probably not ready for any new relationship now. Or maybe, I just havent met the right one yet.

Or maybe, my heart is already dead...

Labels: CNY, love, mj

Freedom...

Sunday, November 30, 2008

Did I mention that I feel so free suddenly? Yes. After a few days of avoiding, having my "alone time" that I so desired and yearned, and finally deciding to face reality, ya, I made that call to him.

It still took me quite some time before I finally found the words that I wanted to tell him. I teared though, when I was making my revealation. I aint angry wif him anymore, seriously. Thanks for bringing that sunshine smile back to my face, which was taken away by the "older him". But then, I guess, during these two years, I have changed. Changed to become a more independent person. A stronger person. Maybe I am not that used to couple-hood anymore, not used to commitment and having to meet up everyday anymore. Maybe it aint the right time and moment..

I'm glad and relieved that we ended things on a friendly note. Things between us aint that bad after all. At least, things didnt turn sour.. Find your own happiness ba. I'm sure you deserve a better girl than me. Thanks for giving in to my selfish-ness and self-indulgence. =)

I'm still at a crossroad. A decision that I had already decided on, and supposed to finalize tomorrow is somehow on the shaky rocks again. Well, situations change and I have to adapt to changes also. I think I've got to withdraw my decision tomorrow. It's really just not so easy as wat you guys see. Not just a simple thing as, I'm not happy then just do it lorr. I do have family and financial commitment can. Sigh.

I seem so fickle-minded.

Labels: love, work